Sunday, September 30, 2007

The Supreme Effort

I've been inspired.

I've just finished a great book, Long Distance: A Year of Living Strenuously, by Bill McKibben. Recommended to me by my friend Dan, it's the personal narrative of an accomplished writer who is also a chronically sub-par middle-aged athlete. For one year's time, he devotes himself exclusively to a rigorous endurance training regimen, hoping to maximize his athletic potential and compete in a world famous cross-country
ski race.

First, I'm inspired by the fact that a man could live and support his family for a year by writing about his own amateur athletic endeavors. Can I quit my job, sign a book deal and get a large cash advance to write about my efforts in early morning basketball? In golf? (Hey, sweetheart, got to be at work all day today . . .basketball in the morning, tennis in the afternoon, and then I'll be on the back nine until late. Can we push dinner back a bit tonight?)

But even more so, I'm inspired by his desire to mentally and physically test himself, to literally reshape his body and mind, to trim off fat and mental weakness, and to push himself towards his supreme effort, one race, one encapsulated moment when he has focused his mind and body to a razor sharpness, when he can say, "There. That is the very best I can do, no regrets."

Not a natural athlete, he gives himself over to expert coaching and countless hours of lonely endurance training. He meets disappoint and personal failure over and over; race after race, he confronts some new weakness, physically finishing, but always aware that somehow, somewhere along the race track, he bailed out early: he hit the wall and backed off his intensity; a faster skier passed him and he felt doubt creep in; he lost his focus and then lost miles of race to sloppy form; he felt pain and became scared of the cost of pushing himself any harder.

His enters his final race with a sense of failure, but then, quite unexpectedly, he finds an inner reserve. He hits the wall at twenty kilometers but pushes through it, feeling the exhilaration of hundreds of hours of training transform into a second wind; another skier approaches him, but he keeps pace and fends him off. His confidence soaring, he attacks a hill and finds himself in second place with the finish line approaching.

But then the pain creeps in. He has pushed himself faster and farther than ever before. This now is his last and ultimate challenge: the fear of pain and exhaustion and failure. What if he gives it his best effort, but still falls short? Isn't there some security in holding something back, because then you can reassure yourself that you could have done better if only . . .? But he has found a zone now, and has no time for his brain's misgivings. He sets his jaw, digs deep, lunges towards the finish line, collapsing in utter exhaustion . . . and utter triumph.

His supreme effort was by no means world-class: he finished second in the middle wave of the amateur race. But he had performed the best that he possibly could, and he knew it.

Every athlete who ever had a coach has heard the phrase, "Leave it all out there," a jock's injunction to give it your very best effort within the confines of whatever venue or game awaits. Perhaps that is one of the great attractions of sports: rules and parameters, definable moments in space and time--against the clock, on the race track, between the chalk --where it is possible to exert a supreme effort in a compressed timeframe and acheive a tangible result: a trophy, a record time, a "Yo Adrian" photo. One moment in time . . . (I think I hear Whitney Houston singing.)

If only real life were that way. By definition, a supreme effort must be unsustainable, for could you sustain that level of excellence indefinitely, that performance would then become ordinary. The value and glory of the supreme effort come from pushing beyond the limits of the possible, and from exacting a heavy cost at the hands of the performer.

But life, sprinkled with rare opportunities for such ultimate efforts, is largely a haphazard accumulation of much more mundane stuff, activities that require monotonous plodding, not heroic striving. This is not to say that consistent excellence is unattainable. But the vast majority of our lives are spent in acts of just getting by, just doing our jobs, just clinging to the status quo and to whatever level of excellence or mediocrity that we and others have come to expect of ourselves.

How could it be otherwise?

How could I give a supreme effort in being a father?

"Honey, it was tough in there, but I did it. That dirty diaper is history!"

In being a doctor?

"Ma'am, with every ounce of energy I possess, please--PLEASE-- lose fifty pounds. How can I make this any clearer? LOSE THE CHUB, Ma'am. Trust me, I'm a doctor."

In being a neighbor?

"Look, Bob, you've been sick. Let me mow your lawn today. Best job you've ever seen. Through thick and thin, Bob. Put her there. Now, can I borrow your saw?"

I've given a number of supreme efforts throughout my life: cross-country, basketball, missionary work, residency. Sometimes I've excelled; often, I've just hung on by my fingernails. But I have had the satisfaction, when the effort was over, of knowing that I had given it my very best, no regrets.

But it's been a long time since I've had that feeling. Maybe that's just part of my entry into middle age. No more glory days. The new trick is to find meaning, purpose, and joy in the commonplace events of everyday life. And I do find great purpose in my wife and children, in my job and church, in my hobbies and interests.

But the tantalizing spectre of the supreme effort hangs out in front of me. Is it urging me towards some unforeseen, nearly unattainable greatness? What's it going to be? Cross-country skiing? A marathon? Mountain climbing? Or is it tempting me to ignore the pressing issues of real life to wistfully indulge in extraneous daydreams?

Well, I'd love to sit and chat about this some more, but hey, it's Saturday. There are some great football games on.

Guess I'll have to mow the lawn next week.

(Bob's on his own.)

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Fruit: The Greatest Hits

As much as I love the veggies from my garden, I've got to admit something. You know the food pyramid? The one that recommends 5 servings of fruits and vegetables every day?

Give me the fruit, baby.

The sweetness, the coolness, the freshness, the flavor . . . what isn't there to love about fruit? By divine providence, we don't have to settle for just a handful, but rather we have a nearly endless variety of succulent fruits to sink our teeth into and let their juices drip from our chins. Fortunately, we live in an age when supermarkets bring to our doors the ripe bounty of the world's best fruits . . .

Here's a list of my twenty all-time favorites, with special attention to the top five:

1) Peach: No fruit carries a higher risk: reward ratio. Nothing is as awful as a dry, stringy peach, but NOTHING is more heavenly delicious than a perfectly ripe peach. I prefer the Palisades, Colorado variety.

2) Strawberry: My innate Fosterness nearly constrained me to place strawberries in first place. But they are a very close second. Sitting on the back porch with fresh strawberry shortcake is as close to Foster paradise as it comes.
3) Grapefruit: The three years we owned a home in Phoenix fulfilled a dream for me: owning a grapefruit tree. They were so sweet and juicy that I never used sugar on them. I have many fond memories of slurping out the final drops of grapefruit juice from my bowl, memories which also haunt my dear wife

4) Mango: My two years in Brazil were memorable for many reasons, but sparking my continued love affair with this ubiquitous fruit was one of the most enduring. We used to pluck them off trees along the streets and suck them dry, then toss the pits into the storm drains. (Of course, then we'd be plucking mango strands from our teeth the rest of the day.)5) Blackberry:
I recently renewed this love, which was first forged along Grandma's blackberry hedge in Tennessee. I love the tartness and the texture of these berries . . .



6) Cherry

7) Raspberry

8) Nectarine

9) Orange

10) Grapes

11) Watermelon

12) Kiwi

13) Apple

14) Apricot

15) Banana

16) Pineapple

17) Cantaloupe

18) Plum

19) Cranberry

20) Pear

(Did I forget any?)

So many fruits, so little time.

Which are your favorites?